for a damn long time...

halo...halo.....eloooooo.....
hey.....kinda long time dy din write any new post lor...
duno....it jz.....mmm....lazy most probably....n nt realy in mood to write any weird stuff here before tis....
bcos...mayb it's gd news for me...tat's im hvin charmy life now n no sad sad thg to say anymore....
wat i aspect before s....here s d place to blame,complaint.....to give vent for my anger
and look for some attention around....
but it's not for now....shudnt b like tat...it s -ve thinking....
yet, i hv seen tru al around my frenz bloggie tis day...
wat they write bout....
s every single story tat they r feeling special happening in their life....n wondering....wat's bout me....??
no matter s sad thg.....bad habit, did wrong or else....they werent bout tis....
but they more +vely....mayb some happiness thgs happened...or kind of ppl i met today.....
it jz......like diary....note everythg down....n take it as experience...
n thus....we can learn from it....get lesson by mistake....n grow up in experience....
tis 1 wat i wan too....human being shud b some development in everyday...
no matter in wat...
our life s short....time s limit....then i hv to do wat i wan....meet who i wish to c....
experience everythg ......n so on.....
sacrify so much n do my realy best in life.....tat's it.....
some popular word s ' 贫穷的生活不是因为没钱。。。没有回忆的人生才是贫穷的。。。'
so...enjoy from now...!!!!!

announcement

hey guys...
today s first time i wrote the blog...
i jz felt so down..
n so lonely....
nobody there....
so....try write blog...
n release everythg out...
fa xie...
mayb it's not realy working..
at least..
gt someone know wat happening to me...
n aspect giving some concern n advise...
tat's y...
pls leave some comment...
but dun hurt me somemore....

i preferred gemini galz...

i kinda person..trust in fate n destiny recent...
for my experiences in the past...
it likes had shown me...
some....
some direction i guess...
dun wish to mention my ex here...
wat a bad ending...
it's just say likes...
1st
in f2...d gal i close to...
n i did like her....
but din get into couple...
she's gemini....
2nd
f4....d galz i couple with....
for one yr n half
also gemini....
3rd
after spm....my college at my working place..
we was so closed...
if i'm not wrong she also gemini...
4th
i entered jmc 2years ago...
d gal i being chase after...
along d duration there...
she also.......gemini...
al tis i jz realise now...
since d gal i mean lately....
jz happened recent...
tis day i tend to thinking tis stuff....
it s true....
my fate.....
to which galz....
i know it's sound like wat....
humor me....
it jz....happen to me....
pls leave comment..

why i'm so easy fall in luv to someone

so hate so damn to myself
feel really down this time
i keep asking god everyday
y treat me like this
but never give me clue
how i get over it
at least give me some lucks
right?
n asking why i always suffering with that feeling
why it just easy come but hard to forget
why why why....
i just....met her
few days ago
then she left....
now i become very weak again
all my mind is bout her
all the time just miss her
all the things i did also bout her
all...s bout her
that time....when we meeting
i always look at her face
sincere every part of her
her pretty eyes
her cool cool hair
her smooth white skin
sometimes...
trying to touch her hair
hold her hand
rack my brain how to make her laugh
make cold jokes with her
talk a lot....a lot
from we kids till we old
ambition, interest, dreams...
shopping,chit chat,hanging around...
till late night
it's like in heaven
all thgs look so wonderful
but..........
it just temporary..
she wont be always beside me
when she leave
and miss her a lot
a lot....
the days....become abnormal
turn to hell....damn hell
very hard to get sleep n wake up early in the morning
i can forget the thing i want to do...
what i just remember 10 minutes ago
i can always refresh all the image in my mind
the moment we together ed
like it's happened just awhile before
i termenung at the present she gave me
for a couple hours
i not dare to turn off light when want get sleep
i cant concentrate what other ppl talking to me
my life s...collapse.....
i really miss her..
yet i never felt better...
try and try to get better...
yet still no way i found...
it's not the first times..
but this time...so hard to put it down
it's impossible to see her again
we promised...
i still rmb..
when u said...u hope d guy was me..
i jz wish to tel u.....i hope so...
n kiss u...
but i din...
my brain keep telling me....
i cant...
i scared u never c me again...
however....
i realy miss u...
n luv u...
u r my memory
u r my everythg
i know wat my promised
stil struggling
i will getting stronger
learn how to forget u
like d wind flew by
n guys
sometimes
i'm moody...
tak steady...or wat
pls dun mind bout it...
i need some times
u guys will c d..
noob noob...
or cool cool d me again
jz...
i want to be alone for now
i need calm down..
sorry...
i feel really damn...
damn miss her...